how can you leave me

broken

crying so much

i feel as though i can’t breathe

who would’ve known i could love someone so much

you held onto me when you knew you wanted to let me go

you let me love you

let me give all of myself to you

with the intentions of leaving me here alone

nothing you did was brave

you didn’t do this

for me

you did it for you

if you wanted to see

me happy you would have stayed

now all i feel is the ache

in my stomach and chest and eyes

i told you you were my home so

you burnt that home down

left me on the street alone with no bags packed

because i wasn’t ready for this

i wasn’t ready to be abandoned by the first person who id ever dreamt of having a child with

i never would’ve let you so close if

i would’ve known

you’d do this to me

“pain demands to be felt”

it’s human nature to love and feel pain

but as i sit in my bed after you hang up saying “i love you and care about you”

i let you make me weak

by tears tearing through my sheets

trembles forcing their way through my body

i look for comfort but the one place i feel it.

comfort.

is with the person who just left me

alone

after telling me they wanted to spend the rest of their life with me.

~selfish/heartless/destructive