if only you could see the impact you’ve had on my life

even with you gone, everyday i’m affected

infected with hurt and heartbreak

it’s like you tied a weight to my leg and threw me off deck

you sweetly kissed a goodbye to my forehead as you removed the knife from my back and pushed me over the edge

you walked away with no hesitation, no guilt on your conscious, no intention of going back and saving me

as i begun sinking to the bottom i fought with everything in me to rise to the surface

all i wanted was to fill my lungs with air

but now, as i watch my body slowly sink deeper, I’m filled with a sense of calmness

i watch the blood from my wounds fill the water around me

and i relax as the weight pulls me into the depths of darkness